I Am Unfit to Homeschool My Children

Has this thought ever crossed your mind? Have you ever felt that this is a fact in your life as far as homeschooling your children goes?

I have.

More than once.

More than twice or three times, actually.

In fact, on most days….this is how I feel.

To be more honest….right now, this is how I feel.

I feel I am unqualified to homeschool my children.

I feel that I just don’t have what it takes.

I fear that I might fail my children.

I feel  that I fall short— that I am not good enough to fulfill this task.

I feel that I am not that good of an example to my kids.

I feel that I am not patient enough.

I feel that I am not disciplined enough.

I feel that most of the time, I’m not doing it right.

Could I ever get it right??

What can they possibly learn from me?

How can I possibly teach them if I myself needs to unlearn and learn so much?

What if all they get from me are the things that I precisely would NOT want them to get?

Again, I ask… how can I possibly be fit to homeschool my children???

I decided it was about time God and I  had a heart-to-heart talk about these feelings of mine. Maybe it was time I heard the truth from Him. Are these feelings trying to tell me something that you’re not telling me, God?

I desperately need You to talk to me.

Wait, scratch that.

I desperately need You, period.

God, I feel I am unqualified to homeschool my children.

                       Was it ever a question of YOUR qualifications when I called you into this?

And I feel that I just don’t have what it takes.

                      “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. ” 

(2 Corinthians 12:9)

I am afraid that I might fail my children.

“Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 1:6)

 I feel that I fall short— that I am not good enough.

                     When were you ever good enough? I loved you and saved you when you were not at all “good”.  

                    When was it ever about how good you are?

“As it is written: “None is righteous, no, not one.”

(Romans 3:10)

I feel that I am not that good of an example to my kids.

                    You’re definitely a good example of a sinner saved by grace, who is continually being transformed by that same grace. That’s the example I want you to set— not an example of perfection, but an example of my grace that covers all imperfections.

I feel that I am not patient enough.

                   Ah, that’s something YOU and I need to work on…whether you’re homeschooling or not.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.”  Galatians 5:22-23

I feel that I am not disciplined enough.

                  And there’s another thing I’m molding in you.

I feel that I’m not doing it right.

                Honestly, most of the time, you are quite accurate in saying that you are NOT doing it right.

               Do you think I’m surprised? I’ve prepared for all the times that you won’t get it right. I’ve gone ahead of you. That’s precisely why I sent my Son for you, and my Spirit to teach you. I am the God who redeems and restores….and makes things right. 

Could I ever get it right??

               Cling on to me, I’ll show you how it’s done until you do.

What can they possibly learn from me?

              What can they learn from ME?

How can I possibly teach them if I myself needs to unlearn and learn so much?

              Isn’t that one of the best things you can teach them? —That there is still so much more unlearning and

              learning to be done no matter how good you think you’ve become?

What if all they get from me are the things that I precisely would not want them to get?

              I am a faithful God…a gracious God….a loving God. And ultimately, it is I who parents them.

Again, I ask… how can I possibly be fit to homeschool my children???

  How?

Only by my grace.

Only by MY grace.